Getting Older

As you get older*, it's harder to command yourself - when younger, I could tell myself, "I'm going to run without stopping until I get to that street sign far ahead," and then do it.  Now, when I tell myself that, another voice answers "No." and I promptly stop and walk.  Not sure where that comes from.  

Reasoning doesn't help.  Trying to convince myself that I won't get better if I don't keep running doesn't work.....I just answer "Hey, you're lucky I'm even out here."  And promptly stop and walk.

Trying to imagine a scenario to get me to run doesn't work.  "Ok, someone's chasing me and I need to get to that mailbox to attract attention," doesn't work - "Yeah, right, eeek, it's a little chihuahua.....or maybe that baby in the pram....." And promptly stop and walk.

Trying to remember the good old days doesn't work.  "Remember that great save in soccer - you had to beat the opponent to the ball and save the game?  Pretend that's happening...." doesn't work - "Yeah, that was a great one.  But today you would lose....."  And promptly stop and walk.

I'm not even that tired or breathing heavily sometimes - it just takes the wrong train of thought...."Hey, I'm not that tired - this is great!"  And I think, "Right!  Let's stop and celebrate with a quick walk!"  And promptly stop and walk.

Can't figure the psychology of this out yet....

At least I'm still able to get myself to begin running again - "Ok, let's begin running as soon as we get to that tree up ahead."  And, once reaching the tree, I think "Ok.  Let's run."  And promptly pick up the pace and run.....

*Ok, maybe not you, maybe it's just me......